Yesterday, based on an experience at my Friday evening dance, I got aroused around mindfulness – especially as applied to cashiering. Having been off on my cash once last week, my rallying cry became, “When the cash comes out, the chatter stops – focus on the money!”) I put my “Cash only” mindfulness sign right in my cash drawer, where I would see it every time I dealt with cash. (This did not guarantee that I would always pay attention to it. Like all the mindfulness props I use, it would eventually go into background.)
I had thought that mindfulness of the groceries would for now take a back seat to mindfulness of the money, but I quickly found that they worked well together – that paying attention to the groceries helped me to pay attention to the cash. And I was carrying a real sorrow about how relatively mindless I had been at the dance the previous evening. I couldn’t shake the memory of the last piece of music – haunting bells and chimes – which pretty much flaked everybody else out and which I really didn’t hear because I was composing yesterday’s blog post. Today I was hungry to be in the present moment.
I discovered several things about the groceries:
- Produce was the best fodder for mindfulness practice. The color, the texture, the different weights. It’s alive! The source of life. Great.
- The dill today seemed an unusually dark green.
- If you look close enough, flat parsley (Italian parsley) really is clearly distinguishable from cilantro – and it’s prettier.
- Grapes are great. All those little bumps. Fascinating – and so satisfying to run my hands over. I hoped this lady didn’t notice or mind me lightly resting my hand on her bag of grapes.
- I adore our “Holiday” grapes – boy are they succulent! I made a strategic choice that I could get away with asking this young woman, “Could you please take out one of your grapes and give it to me?” Then I popped it in my mouth and said, “Man that’s great!” She adored it, but that will never go in any manual of good cashier techniques.
- Cans are also pretty cool – the hardness, the heft. Satisfying to handle.
All in all, a great shift – facilitated by the fact that I have shifted from depression to a little bit of mania. Now the issue is to keep my feet on the ground – and mindfulness is the perfect tool.