Cashiering and healing

My friend Kimberly said to me before the Sunday morning dance this morning, “I’ve been reading your blog and I love it.  It seems to me that it’s important for your own healing.”  When I pressed her for more detail about this last part, she said it was “just a feeling”.

This was a new one for me.  I have known that I love the blog, that I am devoted to it, that I get tremendous satisfaction and self-expression from it, but – oriented as I am towards healing and familiar with that language – I hadn’t yet applied it to the blog.  But Kimberly is one deep soul, so what she says is tough to write off.

Is not all of life for our healing?  Kimberly and I share a spiritual teacher, the Zen master Thich Nhat Hanh, who has said, “We are here to awaken from our illusion of separateness.” I think the blog may be doing some of that.  The comments I get from people – here on the blog, in emails and face-to-face – say to me that what I am writing is reaching them, is helpful, touches places that are useful for them to go…that somehow they feel connected to it and to me.  I have a vision of those of us who are sharing this blog experience as a community.  That community especially lights up when people write comments on the blog where everyone can see them – but is equally present when people are in their own homes, silently reading the posts and connecting with them, responding to them.

"We are here to awaken from our illusion of separateness."  Thich Nhat Hanh   Can a blog  help that happen?  Can writing it help that happen for me?

“We are here to awaken from our illusion of separateness.” Thich Nhat Hanh Can a blog help that happen? Can writing it help that happen for me?

I recently went through a powerful personal growth experience called The Shine Expansive. My biggest takeaway from that three-day workshop was a personal mission statement: “I shepherd my flock.”  It’s easy to see that this has been the life purpose that has followed me from my teens in the Catholic seminary, studying to be a priest.  When I was an organization development management consultant at AT&T, my role felt very pastoral – I used to whimsically say that that 400 thousand person company was my flock.

So what if those of us who share the blog are one flock for me?  And what if the community of people around my grocery store are another flock?  It’s clear to me – if not to all of them – that the staff are a community.  And it’s also clear to me that the bigger group of staff and customers are a community.  What if my purpose there is to build community among staff and with customers – to help us connect with each other, to help us awaken from the illusion of our separateness?  And then there are the cashiers of the world – another flock to whom I feel a calling to minister with this blog.

If I think about it that way, then there’s no question that my cashiering job – and the blog which has sprung out of it – are healing for me.

6 thoughts on “Cashiering and healing

  1. Dear Majo, I didn’t know of your time in the seminary. Seeing your blog readers, cashiers and fellow workers as “shepherding your flock” makes perfect, beautiful sense. We are here to help each other.
    I share your love for the written word. Writing helps me discover who I am and what my experience is. I wrote my memoir “The Memory Box” to help put my past in perspective. Now that its finished I feel so free!
    Writing is a healing process even if we share it only with ourselves. But how much better if shared with others?
    Much love to you dear one…


    • Kimberly – When you have The Memory Box available for reading, I want to read it. I have so much respect and admiration for the depth of your spirit and heroism of your journey. I imagine that your difficulty with speech makes your writing even more powerful and important. Your ongoing reading of my blog and your affirmation mean even much more to me because of that.


  2. Hmmm…the self-healing aspect of your blog seemed so obvious that I thought it did not need mentioning. But then you took that unexpected awareness and globalized it. We are here, I am coming to understand, to learn ego-less self-consciousness, which ends up somehow being the same thing as healing the planet. Thank you, Majo, for being a fulcrum for healing balance.


  3. Thanks Chaz. Yes, I did in certain ways already get it that this blog is for my healing. But Kimberly’s words – and processing it immediately after on the dance floor – took me significantly deeper with it. Thanks for your ongoing reading of and participation in the blog. You are helping to create it as a genuine community. I hope that almost as many people are reading your comments as are reading the posts themselves – and that more people come to play with us in this way.


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