I want to be free…

The conversation started over Karen’s purchase of Lilly’s chocolate bars, one of my fav products.  We agreed that neither of us likes stevia – which makes it so surprising that we both like Lilly’s, which is sweetened with stevia.  I say it’s the dextrin, a good ingredient that I reckon counteracts the stevia taste.

We talked about our respective struggles to stay off of sugar.  Karen is on a roll with being sugar-free.  I’ve had two good days, after a disastrous day on Sunday.  (I bought three gooey pastries from my store’s wonderful bakery case, intending them to last three days – and devoured all three of them on the way home.  Horrifying.)

My addiction to sugar is like my addiction to cigarettes - is like any other addict.

My addiction to sugar is like my addiction to cigarettes – is like any other addict.

“It’s not just being sugar-free”, she said. “I want to be free period.”  This really spoke to me: “When I’m into sugar, an addict inside of me takes over.  I am driven by the addiction and live from one sugar fix to the next.  It’s a lot like when I was a smoker.  Maybe the worst part of it was the craving, the living from one fix to the next, the lack of freedom.”

With cigarettes, worse than the disastrous physical effects was the emotional effect, letting the addict in me take over.

With cigarettes, worse than the disastrous physical effects was the emotional effect, letting the addict in me take over.

“I want to be a bigger person”, she said.  “Right up there with staying off of sugar is to get enough water in my daily diet.  They say we should consume a gallon of water a day.  That’s actually pretty hard.  I thought I drank a lot of water, but when I measured it I came up way short.  Nowadays I start my day with two quarts of water – and still it’s a push to reach the gallon.  When we are dehydrated, we get tense and tight.  How many of us experience a lot of that in our days?  What if we knew that it was caused by lack of water?”

In the same binge shopping trip where i bought the three pastries, I also bought a 12 oz. "Mexico Coke" , supposedly a healthy alternative to regular Coke because it uses real sugar instead of high fructose corn syrup.  Devotees - I guess including me - like to claim that it tastes way better and not as sweet.  Now sugar is a hero.  I'm keeping this bottle in the frig - I have not found it in me to pour it out.  I bet I'm going to use it.

In the same binge shopping trip where i bought the three pastries, I also bought a 12 oz. “Mexico Coke” , supposedly a healthy alternative to regular Coke because it uses real sugar instead of high fructose corn syrup. Devotees – I guess including me – like to claim that it tastes way better and not as sweet. Now sugar is a hero. I’m keeping this bottle in the frig – I have not found it in me to pour it out. I bet I’m going to use it.

Karen inspired me.  I want freedom.  I want to be free of my sugar addiction.  At work, I will sip on my morning 16-oz. mug of coffee for two hours – two hours without water.  I want to be open to changing some of my most beloved habits in the name of freedom.